~teRima KasiH~

Hai u oll...ehhehe...tima kasih la pada mereka yang mengucapkan selamat hari lahir dan mendoakan yang terbaik tok kite...tq sangat2..ada yang melalui FACEBOOK, FRIENDSTER, MEMO UMP, SMS, MULUT KE MULUT...oppsss...jangan salah faham ye...heheheh...tima kasih la bebanyak ye...tidak terhingga ucapan terima kasih ni...

Tima kasih gak pada SuyaNakata coz menghadiahkan payung yang sangat cantik & glam gitu...nnti aku upload kan ye tok tatapan kawan2 semua...lagipun aku ngah tunggu hadiah daripada Mr.Mont..dia ckp dia nk adiahkan aku sesuatu yang special..ehhehhe...bila dapat je nnti aku upload k..tk sabar gak ni..sungguh teruja gitu...hehehhe..

Dalam pada ni aku ingin mengucapkan bebanyak terima kasih pada abg long aku coz memberikan kata semangat yang amat menusuk hati ku..kasih seorang abg pada adik nye...tima kasih long..dia anta msg melalui FRIENDSTER dan ini adalah ayat2 nye...

Assalammualaikum my sweet sis

kehadapan adindaku
abangmu mengharapkan segalanya terbaik buatmu wahai adindaku...xmau lea adinda selalu bermuram durja di ati walaupun ceria dimuka...segala yang berlaku biarkan berlalu..mulakan hidup nie dengan penuh tawakal kepada yang maha ESA..kerana sebabNYA kita wujud di dunia...setkan di minda wahai adinda tiada yang buruk hanya yang terbaik..sekian

along yang prihatin

pergh....sungguh menusuk kalbu ku..terima kasih pada along..saya berjanji tok jadi yang terbaik di dunia & di akhirat...dan sebagai adik aku mendoakan semoga abang aku ni mendapat jodoh yang baik seperti perwatakan abang aku yang baik itu (aiceh...promote abg lak..hehehe)

apa yang penting aku amat menyayangi kalian semua...muahmuahmuah :-#



p/s : berbangga kerana dianugerahkan oleh ALLAH seorang abang yang baik & prihatin
love u MEOR ABDUL RAHMAN B. MEOR ZAINUDIN

18 Januari 2010 = 26 taHuN

Alhamdulilah..pada tarikh 18/1/10 ini aku masih lagi bernyawa..ehhehe...dah 26 tahun pn aku...cepat tol masa berlalu...dan hampir 2 tahun juga aku melayari alam rumahtangga..

My mr.mont, slalu tanya apa yang aku nk untuk besday aku kali ni..aku cakapkan pada dia yang aku nk kan dia ada bersama aku, menjalani kehidupan suami isteri yang sebenarnya...mksud aku disini aku nk dia ada senantiasa ngn aku bukan kehidupan sekarang yang hanya jumpa aku waktu weekend je..then mr.mont jawab kalu cmtu dia kena benti keja la..hehehhe...ei sempat lak buat lawak..geram tol aku...
aku tak pasti bila kami dapat idop bersama..tapi aku harapkan untuk arijadi aku yang ntah bila2 dapat kami idop serumah...berharap sangat....
so, untuk arijadi kali ni..aku tk mengharapkan adiah dari suami ku..tapi aku mengharapkan dia di samping aku..em..em..em...
aku percaya suatu hari nnti pasti impian aku ni akan tercapai..AMIN...


p/s:-Mr.Mont adalah suamiku..hehehhe..

~2 0 10 ~

huarghhh....ngntok nyer...actually, aku ngah buat keje pastu menyimpang jap la...aku nk pos ckit je ni..
juz nak wish kat u all HEPY NEW YEAR...2010....heheheh...aku tau dh lewat tapi masih lagi dalam mood tahun baru kan...
hopefully, tahun ni akan membawa banyak kebahagiaan dalam idop kalian semua...

p/s : 2010...watch out..

2 0 0 9

Penutup tahun 2009 bagi aku amat pahit...

mula2 dengan berita keguguran aku, dan pada 27hb Disember kami sekeluarga dikejutkan dengan berita kemalangan keluarga mentua ku yang on da way nak balik pahang...mereka aksiden di Kuala Kubu Baru...terima kasih pada orang2 kampung yang menolong keluarga mentua ku sewaktu kejadian berlaku....terima kasih sangat2...di atas kecekapan kalian, keluarga mentua ku tidak ada apa2, cuma mak mentua aku sahaja yang patah pergelangan tangan...tapi kalu ditengok pada keadaan kereta mmg mengerikan..alhamdulilah keluarga mentua ku semua nya selamat...Syukur ALHAMDULILAH....

Diharapkan tahun 2010 akan membawa sinar bahagia kepada kami sekeluarga...AMIN..

Selamat tinggal 2009, selamat datang 2010....


p/s: Kita hanya mampu merancang, tapi TUHAN yang menentukan segalanya..

...Ku terima dengan redha...

Assalammualaikum u all...hehehe..dh bersarang kan blog kiter ni...macam2 perkara yang berlaku tapi memula nk che yang hepy dulu...
nak ucapkan Selamat Pengantin Baru pada adik ipar ku iaitu Nor Syahida (Noni) bersama dengan jejaka pilihan hati beliau iaitu Sayuthi...ecah ucapkan semoga berbahagia hingga ke hujung nyawa..AMIN...

em...macam2 musibah yang berlaku...

Camni, pada tarikh 10 November 2009, aku telah disahkan mengandung 1 bulan 3 minggu..masa ni aku hepy sangat dapat bite ni...tapi pengalaman dulu aku pernah keguguran so kegembiraan hanya aku kongsi bersama suami, keluarga dan kawan opis yang dekat je...kawan2 yang lain bukan aku tknak bagitau tapi aku takut alami situasi keguguran lagi seperti dulu...
masa mengandung tu aku alami morning sickness yang sangat terok...bagi aku waktu malam aku adalah sangat terok aku alami...tak larat, tak lalu makan, pening macam2 lagi....dah yang paling tk disangka aku tk suka ceburi benda yang social contohnya g keluar shopping ke even melayari laman web social pun aku tk minat...contohnya buat blog ke..hheheh...mmg aku merasai saat2 alahan mengandung....tapi...akhirnya telah tertulis..telah ditakdirkan oleh ILLAHI...

saat yang aku amat takut...pada 9 Disember 2009, usia kandungan ku 3 bulan 1 minggu...aku mengalami pendarahan..dan aku pergi ke klinik untuk mendapatkan kepastian..tapi akhirnya..perkara yang paling aku takuti aku terpaksa hadapinya sekali lagi...untuk kali kedua...aku KEGUGURAN...!!! aku sedih sangat YA ALLAH...sedih yang tidak terhingga...aku difahamkan oleh doktor bahawa bayi aku tidak sihat..jantungnya tidak bergerak lagi semasa scan sedang dijalankan terhadap aku...YA ALLAH apakah dosaku...apakah salah ku...YA ALLAH...amat berat ujian yang KAU berikan pada ku ini...aku pasrah YA ALLAH...aku redha...ini semua ketentuanMU YA ALLAH..

Setelah berita telah ku terima, lalu suami ku menghantar ku pulang ke kampung (Melaka) untuk urusan pantang...ketika itu suami ku sedang menghadapi peperiksaannya yang terakhir...aku berdoa kepada MU YA ALLAH semoga diluluskanlah peperiksaan yang dihadapi suamiku ketika kami sedang melalui ujian dari MU ini...aku memandang suami ku ketika suami ku memandu...bertitis air mata jatuh di pipinya...kerana tak sanggup melihat aku yang sedang begitu ghairah mengalirkan air mata...mmg aku akui...ketika itu...aku tidak dapat menenangkan diriku sendiri...aku menangis sekuat hatiku...dari perjalanan jengka-melaka...aku hanya menangis je...menangis...menangis..menangis..hingga aku rasa pening yang teramat sangat kepala ku ini...tapi aku tidak hiraukan langsung kesihatan ku ketika itu...aku mahu menangis sepuas hatiku...sampai sahaja di Melaka aku masih lagi menangis bila melihat atuk & nenek ku menunggu dan memapah aku masuk ke rumah..mmg aku lemah ketika itu...aku rasa bagai nk gila...tapi cepat2 aku beristigfar...

Semasa aku di Melaka, bayi aku masih di perut dan tidak gugur lagi...aku mengambil keputusan ingin mengikut suami ku pulang ke Kuantan pada hari Sabtu...pada hari Ahad...13 Disember 2009, aku terasa kesakitan yang sama yang pernah aku alami pada bulan 8 2008 dahulu...ya...GUGUR...hanya menunggu waktu untuk janin ku gugur sahaja...masa itu aku berada di rumah makteh ku di kuantan..hanya aku yang merasai betapa sakitnye ketika itu...pecah air ketuban, darah yang banyak mengalir....YA ALLAH..permudahkanlah keguguran ini YA ALLLAH...aku terimanya dengan hati terbuka..hanya sekelip mata aku berlari ke bilik air dan didapati...aku telah keguguran...keluarnya seketol darah dan janin...ALHAMDULILAH...kesakitan tadi telah hilang...dan hilang sudah bayi yang aku kandung kan itu...3 bulan 1 minggu...ibu sayangkan anak...sayang sangat...pergi la engkau...ibu terima dengan redha...

Malam tersebut juga aku pergi ke klinik untuk membuat pengesahan bahawa aku telah keguguran dan setelah diperiksa oleh doktor didapati rahim ku telah kosong....waktu ini aku terima dengan tenang..aku pasrah..Pada hari Isnin, selepas suami aku tamat menjawab peperiksaannya, aku dan suami pulang ke Jengka untuk adat berpantang...sepanjang di Jengka aku telah dijaga makan oleh mak mertua dan adik ipar ku Ila...tima kasih yang tidak terhingga...hanya TUHAN dapat membalas semua jasa yang telah mak dan adik lakukan terhadap saya...alhamdulilah sekarang...aku sudah mula bekerja...walaupun keadaan aku masih di dlm berjaga2...tapi aku ingin bekerja bagi melupakan perkara yang sedih itu...

Aku ingin memohon maaf pada semua ahli keluarga aku dan sebelah suami aku..kerana aku tidak menjaga betul2 kandungan ini...maafkan aku...aku tau pasti kalian semua menunggu kelahiran bayi ini..tapi ALLAH lebih menyayanginya...mohon sejuta kemaafan dariku..aku sayang kalian semua...kerana diwaktu aku kesusahan kalian semua banyak memberikan aku kata2 semangat dan berada disisi ku di kala ku bersedih dan berduka..

Pada kawan2 ku...terima kasih...semangat dan dorongan yang kawan2 salurkan aku hargainya...doakan agar aku pulih semula semangat yang hilang ini..doakan aku agar tahun 2010 akan membawa kebahagiaan dalam idopku...

Pada suamiku tercinta...
Sayang...terima kasih di atas segalanya...sama2 sedih, sama2 menangis dan sama2 mengharungi ujian ini...Maafkan ayang bang...walaupun abang marah ayang kalu ayang mohon maaf tapi izinkan ayang minta maaf pada abg kerana...tidak menjaga elok waris abang...maafkan saya bang..
Abang....terima kasih banyak di atas segalanya...rasanya tak tersenarai apa yang abang telah lakukan pada saya...saya terlalu menyayangi dan menyintai abang...satu hari nnti rezeki itu milik kita sayang....



p/s :- Yang indah hanya la sementara

..sHarIng Is LoVinG..

ni che yg aku ingin kongsi kan anda semua..sedih story ni..hayati la..sayangi la ibu dn ayah anda..

4 years ago, an accident took my beloved away and very often I wonder,

how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now? She

must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to

taking care of the house and the kid. 'cos that is the exact feeling

that I have, as I feel that I have failed to provide for the physical and emotional

needs of my child, and failed to be the dad and mum for my child.

There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work. Hence, I

had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that

there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after

informing my sleepy child.

With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the

room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with

intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken

porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies

the source of the 'problem'... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a

mess on the bedsheet and blanket!

Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged

straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him

a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short

explanation:

"Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were

not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But I

remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without

any adults around, hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from

the bathroom to cook the noodles. One is for you and the other is for

me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it

under the blanket to keep it warm till you return. But I forgot to remind you

'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."

At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I

didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and

cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went

towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him,

while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on

the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's

room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little

buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy.

A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to

focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to

most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten.

Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood

memories and he is still happily growing up.

However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time,

his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from

school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to

explain. But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling

out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop,

happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the

hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But

after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by

his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was

the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....

Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the

kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept

to himself and stayed in his room to practise his writing, which I am sure,

would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me

proud too!

Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's

winter, and its Christmas time. Everywhere the christmas spirit is in

every passer-by... Christmas carols and frantic shoppers.... but alas, my

son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the

day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post

master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to

post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise

never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel

that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he

apologized, ' I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I

pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the

letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son

on his prank, during this time of the year.

His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy.

My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to

ask him:

" But why did u post so many letters, at one time?"

My son's reply was:

" I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each

time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not

able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I

could reach it and I sent it all at once..."

After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say.....

I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future,

if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach

mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon

after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the

letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldnt help

opening the letter before they turn to ash.

And one of the letters broke my heart....

Dear Mummy,

I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and

the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I

did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was

afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad

went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front

of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was

furious, and he couldnt help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not

tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and

whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his

room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But

Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my

dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if

you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will

see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why havent you appear?

After reading the letter, I cant stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace

the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife....

For the females with children:

Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be

some kind of problems within the company, and it is not your sole problem.

Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer

to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take

care of your little precious.

For the married men:

Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not

even business nor clients.

Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are

totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this

society, no one is indispensable. Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little

precious and your loved ones.

For those singles out there:

Beauty lies in loving yourself first.

With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other

things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't

let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing

matters more than your well being.

p/s : ibu..ayah..rinduuu..

~Menu Mingguan~

hai u olls..hehheh...

Assalammualaikum & Selamat Pagi semua...

aku nk berkongsi ckit cerita pada weekend yang lalu...pada weekend yang lalu aku telah mencuba resipi buat piza..mmg simple buat piza ni sebenarnya..resipi pun aku dpt dari kawan aku...yang sedihnya aku tk dpat nk tgkp gmbar piza aku tu sebb nye bateri kamera plak dah abis..tkpe next time bila aku buat lagi aku akn post kan gmbar & cara2 membuat piza...bagi aku ok la..1 try kan biasa la pasti ada yang tak kena..mula2 ingat dh masak toping nye tapi lom lagi..heat lagi dalam oven..hehehhe..lastly masak gak..alhmdulilah..sib baik hubby aku ckp OK, NOT BAD...heheheh..untuk pengetahuan semua, my hubby mmg seorang pengkritik masakan yang hebat..hehehhe..(pdhl suami aku tk pandai pn masak..sory dear..)

Piza aku buat tu dapat la dalam 3 bekas..byk gak tau..then aku pn bagi la cikit pada CT yang dok dkt uma aku tok dia rasa..hehehhe..memandangkan aku & suami perot org MELAYU la katakan tetap nak makan nasi gak malam tu..hehehe..so, aku dengan pantas & cekap pn masak la menu yang cukup simple (menu ats order my hubby) ikan bilis sambal & sayur air..hehehe..konon2 la nk western sangat tapi akhirnya nasi 1 pot abis gak kami bahan..hehhehe..

Pada hari Ahad lak, lepas je suami ku pergi ke kelas, aku pn menjalankan tugas sebagai isteri pergi ke pasar nak beli barang2 nak buat laksa...emm..dah lama tak makan laksa so aku pn dengan pantas & cepat membeli barang2. Sampai je uma terus main masak2 laksa..rebus ikan, rendam laksa...dan sebagainya..untuk pengetahuan semua resipi laksa ini adalah resipi turun temurun keluarga aku..ada rahsia di sebalik pembuatan laksa ini..kalu nk tau kena la try laksa aku ini ye..hehheh..konpom korang nak minta resipi ngn aku la...hehhe...

Kiranya weekend yang baru2 ni aku penuhi hari aku dengan pelbagai menu masakan..aku semakin rajin memasak (puji diri sendiri la plek..) dan semakin kurang membeli & makan di luar..hehehhe...alhmdulilah...so for da next weekend...ingat nak masak nasi aym la...hehehe..insyallah...akan cuba menjadi seorang isteri yang rajin memasak & menjaga perut suami nya..(aik???)



p/s : tk dpt nk upload gmbar..lain resipi aku akan tgkp pic & letak resipi ye..